Hate Teaching Today...

you see everything...

you see every part...

you see all my lights...

and you love my darks...

[Alanis Morrissette- everything]

Today I almost get mad in class when I was teaching. And I
know what would happen if I mad and emotionally upset... I would cry. Yeah, I am not such a weeper or a woman who easily cries.
But when I get frustrated I will cry my tears out... I dunno why... I just hate
that fact, but I can't help it. I remember the last time I cried was when I broke up
with my last boy friend (well, I'm not gonna spesific numbers) . I cried becoz I
saw him cried; a tough, and manly man like him cried when I broke up
with him. I had no choice, coz I can't have a long-distant relationship. But
yeah, breaking up is hard...

And now, I almost burst in tears in front of my students. NO
WAY! I am not gonna act weak in front of those spoiled bunch of brats. So, I
just sitted down and said slowly, "Next week, I will definetely take any
handphones which ringing and being showed. And if any of you won't hear my
session... you are pleased to miss this class."

And the class suddenly sounded soo quiet...

Well, I miss my old diligent students who attending IB now :(
I'd rather teach few students than a huge amount of children who don't have
respect for others. Enough is enough. And glad to know I will end the contract
with the school by the end of this year. Fiuuh...