10.17 am... sitting on my desk... feeling so blue...
I sms my best friend 2 days ago. Asked her about her study, life, and
told her a bit about what's happening in my life... I was feeling do
damn tired, sad and lonely lately. Being closed to someone somehow
doesn't make me whole... I dunno...
Do you know the feeling of loosing a close friend? Well, I do. Call me
moody, call me sensitive, call me whatever, but I just know when a
friend is drifting away from me.
I know I shouldn't start what I can't finish. I know I'm stupid. I
know that I'm fragile,too...
I can't finish it. Get it done. Get over it. Coz somehow someway the
feelings keep on linger in my head. Is it special? Is it worth it? Is
it meaningful? Is it? Is it? Is it?
Yesterday made a mistake. Huge mistake. Do I regret it? No, but I felt
like crying...
Something in my heart is screaming loud... Why, why and why?
Why is it always the wrong time, the wrong person, the wrong chemistry?
I know the feeling when I lost it. And I also know it when I find it.
Why can I be a woman who is easily in love, who is not too damn
complicated, or too damn moody, or too damn picky! But I am... I am...
Being here, in my present existence... I feel like I want to be
someone else, somewhere else, doing something else, meeting someone
else...
My best friend had warned me. Once. Twice. More. Coz she had fallen
before. Couple of times. She said she will never be the same again.
And I know exactly what she meant by that.
The day before. Sitting face to face. Wanted to finish it. Wanted to
say that it was just a fling, a game, a foolish act. But it wasn't. I
knew it wasn't. He knew it wasn't either.
So...what's next? Nothing.
I don't wanna see. I don't wanna hear. I don't wanna talk. I don't
wanna breath. And I don't wanna feel.
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3 comments:
Take a deep breath coolz... juz feel the fresh air...
I can't do much 4 u, it happend on ur heart, it can be hard to heal. But thank God, it can be easy too!
Hemm.. u fall in love with ur friend? hehe.. yeah. I've been through that thing. I still can't forget him, but i realized... if he is my soulmate.... he'll never walk away. If he's not, I'll find the one...:)!
In our lives we can meet special man. Our destiny may allow us 2 b at the same point. He left precious moments n special feeling in our heart, n we wont b the same as we were. We should thankful that we can feel it.
U can get through it gal, just give urself a time.
Well.. only one comment: just act the way you feel. There's no need to follow the community's moral rules when you don't feel like it.
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