Written via cell phone, on March 24. 09.14 pm...
Sitting here along with other bus passangers, I feel so stupid. If only I'd took the offer of ojek guy, if only I had listened a friend saying that I should go earlier, if only. I was as stupid as cow, as stupid as mule. I was supposed to be at home by now, eating my mum's cooking, playing with my dog, watching cable, chatting with my family, or playing silly Play Station games. But I've lost my flight. And I am in a bus headed to gambir with no place t go. This is absolutely ridiculous. waiting an hour for a cab, walked to damn far to finally ended up in a Silver Bird and stucked there in da middle of traffic jam for hours. I've never felt so stressed up like that all my life. I even cried in the taxi when I realised that I missed my flight already. Fucking Jakarta's traffic! Fucking idiota me... I hope everyone would forgive me. My parents, friends who had awaited for me. Hhh, today is definetly not my lucky day...
09.22 pm...
Thinking what the fuck I have done. Looking for a place to go. To stay, to cry, to pray. At this point, I don't care what I'm gonna do, I don't care where I'm gonna go. I just feel empty. Stupid, miserable, and empty. God didn't answered my prayer. I am sick, I am tired, and I am weak. I guess what I need is a sanctuary. Officially good friday for me...
March 25, 06.56 pm...
I am at the passanger lounge now. Listening to the nice old song "Back To You" through my mini radio. Today I took off from Gambir at 3 pm and arrived at terminal 1A before 4 pm. So I guess if next time I wanna catch the last flight, I need to take off 3 hours earlier ( about 4.20 pm). Yesterday I waited for taxi from 4.30 pm! I really feel that time is so precious right now... Looking forward to meet my family and dine together:)
Anyway, look at the bright sight lah... I got yo met Aida, Dody, Dany, Sophie, Keju :> We went to mangga Dua this morning and I've bought 1 black polo shirt, 7 Asian movies DVD, 1 Anime DVD and 1 music DVD. Hehehe, now I have some 'oleh-oleh' to bring ya! :p I become more aware of my parent's care for me... Kinda touchy... My mum even had prepared dinner (steamboat) yesterday. Thank you, mommy... My God gives me plenty times for me to return their love.
Today, home already...
Woke up quite early today, eventhough still want to sleep again:p Received about 10 text messages saying "Welcome Home!" or "Where are you? Let's meet up!". Some even called me at home. Well, sadly to say I have only 1 1/2 day to enjoy my long weekend. And I wanna spend it at home, with my family, doing anything I like and play with my old dog. So after ate breakfast, I fitted an outfit for bridemaid at variti with my mum and my sister who is the one that getting married in June. Congrats to her! I felt a bit fatter than I used to... I need to swim, jump, or do whatever I do to stay fit.
After fitting dress we went to Papaya to buy some groceries, headed home, and then went to photo studio "Perak Mas" at Jl. Dr. Soetomo. Quite nice, but not that cheap also...
On the evening I drove alone, doing sightseeing and went to Supermal. Bought one nice red sporty jacket. So I guess my weekend was not that ruined anyway...
Tomorrow is Easter day, Happy Easter everyone..!
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