The message was so strong last night*...
I've made an arrangement with my dear God early this year, and yes, I will go and do it, Lord, if you want me to. Cuz my life is nothing without you. I'm juz a dust. You are the center of my universe.
Doing what I do now suddenly become so much less important. I like it, but lately it has drawn me further and further... I cannot be lost -cuz you hold me so tight, God- but I can be far. While all I want is to be as close as possible. I cannot do that if I arrive home so tired and dizzy, and only able to pass out on my bed effortlessly everynight.
Yesterday God allowed me to see things clearly... I was so exhausted, my heart was troubled, and so-not-ready to join a worship concert. I wasn't actually a hillsong's songs fan, or eiger to hear loud music while jumping and shouting in the mid of expressive ppl. I saw all the hands were raised and many youngsters drawn to praise God's name. It was really awesome. What about me, Lord? Who am I? What am I doing here? Standing in the midst of this submissive crowd. Songs after songs were played (with fantastic vocals), and as I re-read the lyrics displayed on the big screen, I realised that God actually wanted me there...
I just got back from harsh meeting, and had unpleasant messaging with a friend. I didn't want to arrive late myself either, but I couldn't leave a pre-production meeting! I did say that I could be late the day before (no, I didn't say I'm gonna join dinner first, pls read the texts again). Well, nevermind thy attitude... I don't need to be understood either, cuz I know only few people could really get me. Thanks God the traffic was not bad at all! We arrived there at 07.30pm and only missed 3 songs (Ewink didn't get himself a ticket, so he went home). So, me and Dina went inside without any guidance, and managed to find my choir friends near the doorway. Miss ya, girls. I did feel awful... plus I saw all those crowd... Ah, I almost decided to leave, if I didn't remember that the ticket was given by the music ministry.
Suddenly I wanna see that person. I just need to. I told Dina that I'm gonna look for that person, and walked amongst the lively crowd. And there it is. The best smile of the day. It's amazing what u can do with a simple warmhearted smile. All my troubles were eased at once. The eyes were like saying, "Hey, where've u been? We missed u. Glad that u made it here. Come and join!" No need to say a single word. Words are nothing, really.
Flashing back memories...
I smiled back and joined other people I know. Sis G hugged me and (as always) asked, "Are you allright?" I nodded and smiled. "Yes, now I am," I said to myself. The rest of the day was grrreat.
Pulangnya lapar beratz, karena dari pagi belon makan. Burgerpun tak ada. Akhirnya dua babi berjalan dan berpetualang lagi... hihihi... I always enjoy night scenery. Sempet ngelewatin Putt Putt, tempat Joyce mau ngerayain bday-nya. Well, poor Joyce... Kita rame-rame nyanyi "Happy Birthday" di depan pintu exit, trus ada yang iseng nyiram dia. Setelah pisah ama yang lain, we went to ClubStore just to find that it was already closed (haha, ngga kaget sih). Then we chat and walk along the sidewalk again. It's easier to go to the mall, but I didn't want to go to Senayan ah... We ended up having a very late dinner @ Oh La La, Sarinah. The smoothie never tastes that good, hete... It's always nice to go out with you:) Ohya, terima kasih Hillsong. Datang lagi yaa!
*after watching hillsong UNITED concert.
I've made an arrangement with my dear God early this year, and yes, I will go and do it, Lord, if you want me to. Cuz my life is nothing without you. I'm juz a dust. You are the center of my universe.
Doing what I do now suddenly become so much less important. I like it, but lately it has drawn me further and further... I cannot be lost -cuz you hold me so tight, God- but I can be far. While all I want is to be as close as possible. I cannot do that if I arrive home so tired and dizzy, and only able to pass out on my bed effortlessly everynight.
Yesterday God allowed me to see things clearly... I was so exhausted, my heart was troubled, and so-not-ready to join a worship concert. I wasn't actually a hillsong's songs fan, or eiger to hear loud music while jumping and shouting in the mid of expressive ppl. I saw all the hands were raised and many youngsters drawn to praise God's name. It was really awesome. What about me, Lord? Who am I? What am I doing here? Standing in the midst of this submissive crowd. Songs after songs were played (with fantastic vocals), and as I re-read the lyrics displayed on the big screen, I realised that God actually wanted me there...
I just got back from harsh meeting, and had unpleasant messaging with a friend. I didn't want to arrive late myself either, but I couldn't leave a pre-production meeting! I did say that I could be late the day before (no, I didn't say I'm gonna join dinner first, pls read the texts again). Well, nevermind thy attitude... I don't need to be understood either, cuz I know only few people could really get me. Thanks God the traffic was not bad at all! We arrived there at 07.30pm and only missed 3 songs (Ewink didn't get himself a ticket, so he went home). So, me and Dina went inside without any guidance, and managed to find my choir friends near the doorway. Miss ya, girls. I did feel awful... plus I saw all those crowd... Ah, I almost decided to leave, if I didn't remember that the ticket was given by the music ministry.
Suddenly I wanna see that person. I just need to. I told Dina that I'm gonna look for that person, and walked amongst the lively crowd. And there it is. The best smile of the day. It's amazing what u can do with a simple warmhearted smile. All my troubles were eased at once. The eyes were like saying, "Hey, where've u been? We missed u. Glad that u made it here. Come and join!" No need to say a single word. Words are nothing, really.
Flashing back memories...
I smiled back and joined other people I know. Sis G hugged me and (as always) asked, "Are you allright?" I nodded and smiled. "Yes, now I am," I said to myself. The rest of the day was grrreat.
Pulangnya lapar beratz, karena dari pagi belon makan. Burgerpun tak ada. Akhirnya dua babi berjalan dan berpetualang lagi... hihihi... I always enjoy night scenery. Sempet ngelewatin Putt Putt, tempat Joyce mau ngerayain bday-nya. Well, poor Joyce... Kita rame-rame nyanyi "Happy Birthday" di depan pintu exit, trus ada yang iseng nyiram dia. Setelah pisah ama yang lain, we went to ClubStore just to find that it was already closed (haha, ngga kaget sih). Then we chat and walk along the sidewalk again. It's easier to go to the mall, but I didn't want to go to Senayan ah... We ended up having a very late dinner @ Oh La La, Sarinah. The smoothie never tastes that good, hete... It's always nice to go out with you:) Ohya, terima kasih Hillsong. Datang lagi yaa!
*after watching hillsong UNITED concert.
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