Yesterday I was hyper-sensitive. During the time, I did some thinking... Despite of my own choice to stay single, I think I know why I remain single 'till now (if not, have relationships which last LESS than a year or two):
1. I often say things I'm not supposed to say... you know, being a sarcastic & witty person *borrowing descriptions from a friend* , I might say things that pop out from my head bluntly... If you only know how many times I regret saying things after a while... hmm...
2. I often feel righteous. Yes, I used to be a spoiled last born in the family. I haven't faced a lot of failures. This is really dangerous, and if the other person is as hard-headed as I am, than surely one day we would have a confrontation. People who can "cool" me down are patient-passive people... if not, smarter sarcastic people.
3. I don't have family bond. Yes, I do have families. Yes, I love them and they love me. But, that's probably it. Nothing is wrong, but I dunno... I just feel like a loner. And I think along the way, I keep searching for a loner soul... like me.
So, looking at those facts, I'm thinking probably it's better if I become an adventurer, a mission worker, or a constant traveler... don't you think so? I bet Anthony Bourdain never feels homesick, too... hehehe.
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No need to be overanalyzed Shir. There is one person for everybody even for the most unique and complicated person. It's just the matter of choices. Either you choose to be single or not, I'm sure lots of guys out there are chasing you and moreover can completely accpet you for the way you are. So...single or not...itu pilihan aja. Petis.
Sok tua si Petis ini. But unfortunately she's so right this time. You decide your life, girlie.
about the loner thing..
often feel like that too, just wanna like other happy and warm family but other side of me just can't go to that way..
i guess i can imagine a little bit how u feel
hmm... good to know i have company, jus:) how r you, btw?
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