The Problem with Hope

What is it with hope? Once it gets into your head, it tends to stay for a long time. Nobody knew. It was once upon a time in 2005, when I saw him there. I was happy and hoping to be able to know more. Talking more, observing, listening, understanding... Took me years before it finally became like today. I was cultivating hope. And this year, out of the sudden I felt it again. The butterflies, curiosity, and compassion. I told myself that I am not going to do this again. Feeling so much like a fool now. Forgive me, God, for I have sinned. For a moment there I thought we had a moment. But I was wrong.