I guess it is true. Tiger should be on my 3rd preference... since I cannot sleep tonite, thinking about a past that should never happen at the first place...
If sisca could say something
There was a girl named sisca. sisca was described completely wrong by a guy who named himself fendy. now, sisca is sorry she ever know fendy. coz he is a jerk. a coward jerk. and like many people say... once a jerk will always be a jerk. It was a year ago when she ever remember that sms could be as powerful as a sharp knife. Sisca being introduced to fendy, an average man with minus sight and smoker teeth. Heavy smoker, she noticed. Sisca never like smoker, and not that she doesn't want to try. Her 2nd boy friend turned out to be a smoker too... and he never quit smoking eventhough he did stop smoking when he was with her. "Your teeth is ugly, you must be a smoker," she frankly said. fendy laughed and said that he had already quit smoking for quite a while and that he hated smoke. sisca saluted his will. at that time, fendy was in the middle of his breaking off. he was broken hearted and torn apart becoz he said he really love his girl friend. His girl end up marrying someone else. At the moment, sisca felt pity for him eventhough she thought that the guy was a bit weird. But one day fendy started to sms her. Followed by the next day, the day after that, and so on... almost everyday. Sisca was feeling awkward not to reply his messages -since they actually meet everyday- and she did reply him continously. At that time, no one knows, not even fendy, that she was having a hard time. A married freak was chasing her and kept bugging her to have an affair with her. That freak is one of her church friend who always looks nice and polite in front of everyone else but her. He had had a beautiful smart wife beside her, but he still wanted an immature young girl like sisca. so, yes, a guy is not a guy if he doesn't know how to flirt and fooling around... at least for a guy like fendy. he sms her literally everyday, send her tons of flirting and romantic words. and for a girl who had fed up with a freak, his sms suddenly became refreshing for her. she didn't think of fendy at all at that time, since she just breaking off with her boyfriend 3 months ago. but fendy was really smooth. sometimes he sms her all nite just to accompanied her making her school assignment. "that was so sweet," thought sisca. she liked him in a way, although had never occured in her head that she and him would became a real couple. coz he has a different religion, coz he is a smoker, coz he had ugly teeth, coz he is lack of confidence, coz he has a dark past... coz of many things. somehow she sense that fendy is familiar with girls and probably often get wasted or having sexual experiences with his former girl friends. but yeah, fendy was still chasing her and she started open her heart for him. well, it was before christmas last year when sisca went out of town for a while. and fendy did meet another girl he called lanny. lanny was great; she is funny, smart, sensitive and they both went to the same school. one two close friends started to spread rumours that fendy was close with lanny. but sisca didn't care that much, actually, becoz she believe that fendy is not that type of guy who is chasing girls easily. becoz fendy is a shy guy. well, finally, sisca end up with a sweet guy she met accidentally. the guy was not a hypocrite, coz he did say that he never had a serious relationship with a girl. neither does sisca. he helped her through many things, and he always be there for her... at that time she said, "this train won't stopped for uncertainty" so she accept him as her boy friend. she made the right choice. Not too long becoz he had to go somewhere far for years. and sisca tried what is called a long-distant relationship for 8 months. it didn't work. but she and that guy are still good friends after that. sometimes he called sisca just to say hi and to catch up her life story. Meanwhile... fendy was still chasing lanny, but at the same time still talking romantic craps to sisca (he didn't know what he wanted, and he didn't love anyone if you ask me... someone like fendy is just loving himself too much). after new year, things went out of control. fendy got frustrated that lanny didn't think that he is special, and sisca also close with another guy. he got mad at the situation. sisca kept thinking was it her fault in someway? she kept haunted by those guilty feeling for months... she even cried. becoz she thought fendy is fragile, fendy is nice, fendy is just a poor victim in the situation... until she discovered that he is not as nice as she thought. A man is what he says. And if a guy can easily says "i miss you" or "i want you" to more than one woman at the same time... well, you'll never know what he is capable of doing! at that time, sisca starting to doubt everything he said and he said he felt. Do you know the feeling of distrust? When you are talking to someone but you are never sure that he/she is telling anything true... well, fendy IS a guy like that. And sisca made her choice: she doesn't want to have a hypocrite / liar friend like him anymore. not long after that fendy was introduced to another attractive coquettish girl named eliana. eliana was sisca's friend. fendy started to have a new prey, and he was chasing her hard. calling her, buying her stuff, and giving her his full attentions. sympathy flows, and trust was given. eliana was annoyed at first but then she said "i wanna try to fix a broken heart". becoz fendy is smooth and always act 'fragile' in front of her. But they could never said outloud to everyone else that they are a couple eventhough they are. becoz of guilt. becoz of shame. becoz of many things. so, if fendy said that sisca had a crush on him THAT much and that she sticked with him like gum, it was just a bunch of craps that he wanted to believe. The fact was fendy chased her at first (just for fun or challenge) and she did almost fall for it... but God didn't allow that to happen. and God introduced someone better for sisca. Now, everything he said is just the opposite of the truth... he even started to smoke again proudly. *paused*
sisca was glad she did give one gift as a goodbye (eventhough probably he had thrown it away). she doesn't have to live feeling guilty anymore. she doesn't even have to say hello to him and be a fake friend again. she just wants to be friends with lanny and eliana. coz friendship is too precious to be traded with guys. More over, a typical confused guy like fendy ^-^
A long story, huh? I just put it here just so you learn from it.
If anyone says that a leaf flies because the tree do not want to have it again... it is not entirely true. A leaf flies becoz it desire to be free. If a leaf really try to stay, that leaf would become a beautiful part of a flower, a fruit or a branch. That leaf would not be wasted. And that kinda leaf I am longing...
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