About Being The Youngest Child (Updated)

What's so good about being the youngest child?
Hmmm...many things actually. I have always enjoyed being the youngest one in the family. But what I DON'T realise was the bad thing about being the youngest child....
I've just realised it yesterday... when I was reading Harlequin novel and after met my moody client...

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Feb 28, 2005
About Being The Youngest Child- PART 2

Hehehe...
I am back:P Wanna hear a funny story?
Yesterday I tried to wrote something that I had thought about for quite a while. But I arrived a bit late from ITC Kuningan, and just had less than a hour to use the computer with internet at the nearest mal. Well, actually there is also an internet station in front of the mall (near Circle K) which open 24 hours, but I don't want to go there coz the place look dirty and not comfy enough. Cheaper, but don't make me feel safe. Overall, I was typing the sentences on my blog, when some of my friends were also chatting with me. I couldn't finished it, so I said to myself, "Let's just post this for now and continue it tomorrow... I guess no one will read it by then (coz it was Sunday nite and I planned to write the rest story the next morning)" But then I got 3 messages of protestants... Thx for reading. Sorry, guys...so here we go...

The thing about being the youngest child is you rarely got a full responsibility. I had just realized it after reading a Harlequin novel that tells about a bilyuner who is confident, smart, sympathic, yet also stuborn, self-centered and dictator. He used of living as the older brother who had to take care all of his youngest brothers and sisters. That's what made him so confident about his act. Well, then when I met my client the other day and wrote in my blog about "a higher level of responsibility", I kinda realized that I have never given a huge responsibility in my family. Ever.
The only responsibility I know is when I interacted with people around me, joined organizatitions and stuff... but my family had never give me any burden of life. There are always someone else to do it before or FOR me... for example like fixing the flat tire, filling the oil, making my citizen ID card (KTP, SIM, etc), paying the bills, etc...
Is that good? I don't think so. I don't know why, but somehow (even until now) I've always have this safe feeling that everyone would always watch my back, take care of me when I fall, and fix things for me. Even when I got fined by a police once, my father were the one who actually came to the court and fix it up for me. All I know was, within a couple of days I'd already got my driving license again. Or I remember when I got in trouble coz crashing into my neighbor's car... well, I told my father about it and he fixed everything for me too...

What if I am alone? What if nobody's there to fix things anymore? Will I survive then?

Yeah, I guess that's the bad thing about being the youngest child. Everybody would love you too much, and take care maany things that they thought you would not be able to handle. Well, if not too careful, I might have become a spoiled brat, right?
Now the older I get, the more responsibility I have to handle. And I've just realized, being honest to myself, I am a bit scared of it.

Many people handle "scared" feeling with different ways. Runnning away ('best' way to free yourself!), avoiding it, blame things to people, looking for excuses and justification, or just learn to deal with it. I am learning to deal with it now.