What People Do Not Know About ME- Une

Hai :)
I'm taking an hour off during my overtime... My head seems to stuck and can't think of something good... something creative... so I'm thinking of boosting up my brain by writing this piece of blog...

For all of you who think you know me quite well... well, think again... or maybe... u do know me THAT WELL (Wow! Let me know!) I dunno... just match these up and figure out by yourself. I just wanna reveal myself and being less secretive. Hehehe...
Here I go:

1. I think ALL THE TIME. Even since I was a toddler .
I always observe people in my perspective and do care about first impression (eventhough sometimes I'm wrong). I always think "what if this happen" or "what if I do this" and questioning about everything that revolves around. Although... questioning doesn't mean that I care about it, either. I more of an apathetic being :D Hehehe... can't do much to change it... sorry...

2. I always like being DIFFERENT. Being unique is a must.
Ever since I was a child, I didn't like buying things that being sold in large scales or copying what my friends did or seeing what people expected to see or having what people had. I don't know why. When people say that A is cool, I rather like to search for something new (and rare, uneasy to find/ appreciated) and say that Z is also as cool as A ^_____________^
So, for the record... I'm always skeptical. And I like to find something good before other people know it (like admit that Renee Olstead is talented, and that JAZZ music is also cool!) Many teenagers thought that Jazz is boring and so old. Hmm, honestly, I learned to appreciate Jazz music since I was in Junior High and since my ear is used to it for quite a while and found that the music is relaxing and good for studying/ daydreaming... I became a Jazz lover until now! Hehehe... for instance, I really like listening to C&J radio (Classic, News and Jazz) since I arrived in Jakarta. I like it so much coz it only play Jazz and classic music with very less announcer, without commercial, and it is using English language. After that, I always requested C&J 99.9 FM whenever I ride in office cars. So, all my office drivers had familiar of my custom and remember it. That's just one example :p

3. I am a believer. I CHAT with God almost all the time.
As from my life and my family experiences, God is good. He has been good to me all the time. I think He must have been good to all His children, but some people are just not sensitive enough to realised it. Even when disaster such Tsunami striked, I'm like thinking... "Ok, this is it... this is the time... He is calling people home... Dooms day is getting nearer". People often think if something bad happen to them, "Why Me?" instead of thinking, "Why others?" Maybe it's just a matter of time. So, even if I look like playful and loose, I have some principles that I defended. I trully believe in the existence of God, the crucifixion, Heaven and Hell, and the redemption... that is why I talk to God, even if I'm in the middle of meeting and just thinking, "God, I'm so sleepy... please don't let me fall asleep" or silly thinking, "God, let me have a Blue Bird taxi before everybody else get it", "God, thank you for the good sleep You gave me yesterday" and things like that. Maybe some of you had done it... maybe some of you haven't. Try it.

4. I only let FEW people know the real me.
When people got to know me, sometimes different people capture different personality of me. Some would probably know the quiet me, some less people know the crazy me. I'm not a person who is easily friendly to new people (baca: sombong). Hahaha! But it's true, maybe I am sombong (don't wanna translate it to English since I think "sombong" is the most appropriate word:p). When I meet a person for the first time, I have my first impression about that person and tend to keep that impression. After that impression, I know right away if I want to "maintain" or "keep" that friend for a long term or not, and categorize that person. Sometimes there are people who knows me for years and still don't have a clue of how I am, because I don't let them know. I choose who I wanna make friends with, and from those friends I choose who I want to be closed with. I guess it's just a matter of selection.

5. I often think that I am better than SOME people.
Hahaha, a bit narcisist indeed. Sometimes woke up in the morning and looking at myself in the mirror... then thinking... "I'm lucky enough to have these eyes...or this lip... (eventhough my face is soo round) or whatsoever..." Just thankful enough to be born normal and healthy and not brainless like some unlucky people:] Seriously, be thankful. And for brain, I think I'm above average-lah. Although perhaps my EQ is terrible, my IQ is 135 and I think crazier than normal people think. I concern about detail, a quick learner, and a true generalist. Hmm, let's see... no intention of bragging of what, this is just a brief listing. I can play the piano, organ, can sing, can write, can design, can swim, can drive car, motorcycle, bicycle, horse, can play badminton, tennis, table tennis, bilyard, bridge, board games such as chess, mahyong, poker, blackjack, othello, practice tai-chi, swimming, surfing, able to use some softwares (since I'm interested in IT),and... hmmm... lho, that's it...??? hahaha... "
Turned that I don't have much knowledge anyhow... I still have lots to learned. Like learn to speak France, Dutch, Japanese, learn to skydive, diving, play squash or maybe golf -lol-, learn to read braille, speak sign language, etc...etc...
Hehehe, but still... I am grateful enough. My lackness is just sometimes since I think I can do a thing better than someone else, I prefer to do it alone and enjoy my solitaire. Again, being apathetic and conceited, huh?:P



To be continued...