Conversation with God: About Desire

One morning I woke up restlessly, and search God in his Holiness. He was sitting on my window, smiling and greeting me with his compassionate eyes...

Me : "I felt so lonely last nite, Father."

I sit next to God and put my head on his shoulder.

God: "What kind of loneliness, my child? You have me."
Me : "I know, and I'm grateful for it. But this is a different kind of loneliness. This is like my ribs are aching..."

God touched my ribs and nodded.

God: "It's the beauty of being a female creation. You feel ache because your ribs were given by Adam."
Me : "Really? Then meet me with Adam, so that my ribs would stop aching."

God: "You should be glad, my child. Not all of my creations are as sensitive as you are. Some of your kind don't even realize that their ribs used to belong to Adam."

Me : "Why is it aching? I don't wanna be this needy to Adam, God."
God: "It's aching because, when I created you, I knew you are able to endure it by yourself."

Me: "What do you mean?"

God: "When you're able to endure the ache, that means you're equal with Adam. I also create Adam with such sensitivity. "
Me: "Does that mean the other of my kind who don't feel ache are not equal with Adam?"
God: "Equal means the same. So, one must feel the same ache to be equal."

Me: "So I'll learn to endure the aching, God. As I was created that way."

God smiled at me and walked on to visit his other children. I am very special for him, but my other sisters and brothers are just as needy as I am. I still have the same ache up 'till today, but now I know that I don't need to meet Adam to endure it. Later, I learnt that it is called "self control".


**When tempted, no one should say, "God is tempting me." For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone, but each one is tempted when by his own evil dsire, he is dragged away and enticed. -James 1:13-14- **