God: "Why are you crying, my child?"
Me : "I'm crying because I'm sad, Father... Someone had hurt me..."
God hold me tighter and whispered,
God: "Do you know hurt, my child?"
Me : "This is hurt, Father. I feel pain inside..."
God: "No, it's not pain, my precious. It's my gift to you."
Me : "Gift? How can you say that? I feel pain here..."
God: "Do you realize that it's my gift to you... so you would awake again."
Me : "Awake?"
God: "Yes! I want you to stay awake and embrace life. Love deeply, cry wholeheartedly, and forgive sincerely..."
Me : "But I don't need pain, God! I want to be happy always."
God: "If you're always happy, you'll never discover tears. Tears are made to be tasted; that's why I made it running down and salty."
Me : *sigh* "What do you know about broken heart anyway, God... You're so perfect."
God: "My child, I know broken heart. My heart had been broken many, many times. Repeatedly."
I stared at my God and cried harder. This time it's not because of my pain, but more because of the pain I've caused him.
Me : "I'm sorry, Father... I am so selfish."
God: "You're not. You're just being my creation. You'll be perfect when it's the time..."
Me : "When will this pain go away then?"
God: "When you realize that... the sky is still blue, the air is still free, the stars are still shine, and I am always here with you."
Me : "Please take this scar from me, God... I don't want people see me wounded."
God: "I'll let it stay there, so you'll remember about pain. Whenever you remember this pain, remember me and call out my name just like you did today."
I hugged God and kissed His cheek.
Me : "I love you, Father. I'm sorry for the pain I caused you..."
God: "I always forgive you, my child."
Me : "Then I should do the same."
I thanked God for coming and staying up with me that night .
Everyone needs compassion, a love that's never failing. Let mercy falls on me. Everyone needs forgiveness, the kindness of a Savior. The hope of nations.
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