Ngangenin...

mood: blank
song: jazzy tunes

Besok mi familia datang... God bless the flight... (krn kalo crash down, everyone I love is there... mikirinnya aja serem bgt >.<). Dan saya tiba-tiba terserang syndrome kangen. Kemarin ditemani my housemate Dina, who is always silent but understands (xoxo), kita asalnya mau ke MKG karena listrik di kantor mati dan udah ngga bisa kerja. Tapi hujan deres banget dan abang sopir taxi pada ngga mau nganter kesana karena banjir. Akhirnya headed ke Arion deh. Dinner di Hokben. Cuma sedikit tapi kita kerasa kenyang banget ya, te... Hmm, kalo aku sih emang syaraf pengecapku berhubungan langsung dengan syaraf mood... So, selama I'm not feeling happy, well, I can't eat much. Bisa lupa sama sekali malah. *Sigh*

Kita ngobrol-ngobrol soal hal-hal remeh banget, dari hal yang bisa bikin ketawa in nostalgic memory atau ketawa konyol karena membuat "ide-ide" aneh yang tak terpikirkan manusia normal. Hahaha. I'm definitely gonna miss you if I move to another place, hete... Hiks. With whom I will share full packs of Lays BBQ (btw, u reader should try, it's addictive bo'!), full package of mini butters, cheese slices, a jar of jam, sometimes bottle of spirits, and not forgeting... our favourite potion, k-o-f-i! Oh, and our belongings too... starting from DVD movies, magazine, comic books, 'till soap. Tahun-tahun pertama aku di Jakarta bakal jadi kenangan ngga terlupakan. Aku yang anak bungsu manja ini, siapa sangka bisa kerja/hidup sendiri and feed myself well... Hahaha, at least not junk food everyday-lah (note: cukup...4 times a week?:p)

Useless Love Talk
Jadi pengen nonton DVD nih. Action, thriller, riddle, horror... Anything really, except freakin' sappy romantic genre! Any romance right now juz... seriously, make me wanna vomit. I don't need all the drama, lies, and craps. Woman will be woman. Boys will be boys. Love exists in our heart if we invite it in; but once it's there it will not want to leave. It is there to stay. The only thing u can do is change its character/portion while it's adjusting with your feelings. Sometimes we mixed up love and feelings as if they are one, while I think love is more than feelings. Feelings are just your ups and downs: happy, sad, mad, confuse, horny, disgusted, jealous, hurt, etc. Love package includes commitment (a willingness to accompany someone/ stay together), care (actions...actions!), attraction, and all those feelings mentioned earlier. If we manage it well, love can be the best thing we have in our lives. But when some of those important elements missing, it becomes dull or irritating.

While I'm writing this, I'm actually trying to figure out in which room I wanna move my feeling for this guy... Broken heart is never easy, especially for my kind; loyal and monogamous type. No, no, I'm not flattering myself, I'm actually mocking myself for being so stupid and reckless. Sometimes I want to become a person that's easily able to develop romantic feeling (but i'm just picky maybe?) U know, when u leave a fragile glass in the edge of a high place... U know that that glass would easily falling down and break, even if you touch it a lill' bit. So u should leave it there, on its place. Save and peaceful. All my love life (if u may call it that) is silly -i promise u'll laugh if i tell u- and blurry. My most distraction is hugh pride. I ended up breaking all of 'em. Phew... It doesn't really matter if there's no love invited. The last time I invited it in was recently, and loong before I grasp the term of "couple" in my teen head.

Next week's destination: My Hometown

So, anyway, enough vomiting cuz of romantic looove... Aku juga kangen segala kekonyolan-kekonyolan semasa kerja di Surabaya deh. My colleages in Alto are the best; the office was my 2nd casa, the bosses were my amigos, the workers were my 2nd familia. It's always a fun day to work, doing the thing I like, too: handling internet business! ^^ Tadi satu sobat deket baru aja ninggalin pesan di FS, ngingetin soal meritnya sobat Alto lainnya tgl 19 Nov ntar. Yes, I'll go home for a short while! Yes, Vanie is getting marry! Whew, will be such a rollercoaster, Van, but enjoy every seconds like u'll never have it again. The one thing I don't regret doing is telling someone how I feel. Lega bow.